THE BLOSSOMING OF THE PATH
There is a reason you always felt like you didn’t fitin.Like you were a stranger from a distant planet. Like you’d been born into the wrong family, the wrong world.
Like your very existence was a cosmic error.Your feeling of ‘not fitting in’ was not wrong or bad. It was deeply intelligent! It was not a sign of your pathology. It was a sign of your originality, your inability to be conceptualised.
Maladaption to an insane situation is pure intelligence, so of course you felt maladapted!You were not willing to reduce the vastness of your being, to squash yourself into a mould which was way too small for you, too limiting, tooviolent, too dishonest.
You wanted to retain your uniqueness, not lose yourself in the madness of the world.Your family was not your family; your home was not your home.Perhaps others called you crazy, sick, abnormal, ungrateful, selfish, evil; treated you like an outcast.
And of course, from their perspective, they were right. We judge what we fear. We reject what we do not understand. We attack in others what we secretly hate in ourselves. You were a scapegoat for their unconscious misery, their own sense of psychological imprisonment. A cycle of violence as old as humanity itself.There was never anything wrong with you, of course; you were simply walking a different path from others, that’s all.
Perhaps you lost trust in yourself over the years. But today is a new day.Don’t leave your path because of guilt, now, because you want to please friends and family, maintain the status quo. Don’t try to adapt anymore, but learn to love your maladaptation to the paths of others. You are adapting to your own original path!Yes, it’s scary sometimes.
Yes, sometimes you are full of doubt and uncertainty and you want to turn back to the ‘comfort’ of the old. But the old comfort was no comfort at all. It came at a price: your spirit. Your joy.You are no longer a follower. You walk your path without apology. You rejoice when you stumble and fall.
You celebrate your weirdness, giggle at your mistakes.The judgements of others are blossoms falling at your feet.You have found courage, right where you stand. And that makes all the difference.
- Jeff Foster —
