A young mother delivered a baby

A young mother delivered a baby. The baby was born with a cleft palate. The sonography had not revealed this anomaly and so the family was shocked at the baby's facial features. The baby was shown to the mother a few hours later. The mothers mind went into a freeze. She kept looking at the new born, but her mind was rejecting the very existence of the baby. She was internally unhappy with her feminity and began to reject herself along with the baby. This emotion was suppressed and helped her to cope with her life and relationships. 

Sushma came to see me in Bangalore. She spoke of her inability to hug her thirteen year old daughter. Her daughter today does not show a cleft palate. She was operated when she was three. Today she is a beautiful girl and doing well in school. Sushma said, " I love my daughter but am unable to hug her. Everyday while returning from work I think, I will go and hug her but somehow am unable to do it. Instead, I say something rude and then the whole situation deteriorates. I don't know why this is happening?" 

I explained to her the frozen fragment of emotion that is still present in her mind. I explained that when she looks at her daughter, she may still be looking internally at the newborn who was born with the cleft palate. Sushma's eyes widened, " That's so true. Sometimes I actually see her face still with the cleft palate." This is how thoughts creates a vice to block acceptance. 

Our primal emotions if suffocated due to emotional trauma, will affect ones behavior. It can get one to enter a zone of contradiction and affects the ability to respond especially to our loved ones. Till this frozen emotion is released it becomes difficult for the mind to shift its perception. Sushma through a past life session got an insight into this discriminatory behavior by her towards her daughter. She experienced herself as a farmer in the year 1865 living in a small village in Rajasthan. The farmers wife used to cover her face and through the whole past life experience the farmer was unable to see his wife's face. At the time of death, he could see that his wife had a cleft palate. They had no children and were ostracized by the community. He could never bring himself to love his wife. This behavior made him guilty and at the time of death he promised to love her again. To test his intention, the soul was born as a daughter to the soul of the farmer, who choose to be the mother. Roles which we play, are determined by our unfinished emotional relationships. 

Sushma now hugs her daughter and says, " It feels, like I have come Home."